The Procrastination Demon
I’m feeling better now that I have my fix, my distraction. I need nothing else, all is bliss. I can push the world out and sink into euphoria, that feeling that will get me through another moment in time for the small price of keeping my life in limbo. I’ve traveled my decades and numbed myself for the comfort of avoiding what I considered to be daily irritations. The irritations being anything that drives me out of my comfort zone. This path was a delusion that I was wholly unaware of until about the age of 37, I am 44 now. Despite my missteps, friends and family helped me to do quite well for myself. I have a 17-year-old son that continues to develop into this amazing person with an insatiable appetite for life, my wife and I are insanely in sync with each other, as we speed down the path of life we remain hand in hand always growing closer, I’ve always had secure jobs that pay well but somethings always missing.
The void in myself is everything I avoided in life. Two things were at play here; anxiety/fear and procrastination. These two played hand in hand very well. The procrastination kept me from writing, music, creating, it kept me from adding colors to my canvas for most of my life. For the most part, when I was tired, I rested, when I put in a hard day's work I came home and had a few beers as the hours ticked by to the morning alarm. I used the weekends to relax, I consumed comfort via TV, video-games, alcohol, and drugs as time kept ticking. My early dreams became an impossibility as I aged. Of course, we can all look back and say “What the Hell!?”. My goal here is to point out what procrastination can do, it had the talent to keep me temporarily satisfied at the moment while burying my future in promises of tomorrow. This went on for decades! If procrastination exists in your life, choke it out, erase it from all options in your head. Tomorrow's promise starts today, it starts NOW!
If you are like me, you must work for someone else for income. That’s about 50 to 60 hours of time spoken for every week. So your left with finding grind time between family, meals, exercise, sleep and so on. At this point, exhaustion is a real factor in your head. I promise you, the body has not reached its limits, not even close. This is what OverCome The Ape is about, why it exists - for the pursuit of what you feel is necessary for your life and having the mental stamina to have at it until it is realized. If you are hungry, if you crave a different color in life, put aside the distractions and hustle every day. My distractions were typical; drugs, alcohol, and media. Your distraction may be similar or harder to identify. Find them! Eliminate them! Realize your life NOW! No exceptions, no excuses, no regrets. Overcome the ape.
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